I love you more than I can say and adore you for all the great things that you're doing!
Thank you all so, SO much for the emails and letters you sent me this week. It was the bumpiest yet. Haha I think I'm going to keep saying that because it seems like the highs keep getting higher and the lows keep getting lower.
Amazing things happened this week, the best being we got our trio Sister! Sister Timmerman!!! She is so fantastic! She has been out 10 months and is from Pheonix Arizona. She is so fun, sweet and charitable. She is brave and bold and makes tracting and talking to people so much fun. It's nice to see a new way to do things. I am learning to think outside of my box a little bit more. I love her. We all get along really well so it's such a blessing, I know trio's aren't always so lucky.
We had several lessons with Tiffany this week and she loved them and is defending her testimony to her husband. She is building a closer relationship with God and it's so beautiful to watch. She went to church for the first time with her Grandpa and really liked it! But...she realized she can't drink coffee and doesn't like that idea...so please, please pray for Tiffany to gain an understanding of why we have that commandment and that the blessings are so worth it.
A fun story- we were knocking doors and we were about to head home when we said, one more. We saw a firefly and decided to follow it. It lead us right to a door and the girl who answered was awesome and said to come back, that she would love to hear more! The elect. Thank you fireflies and the Holy Ghost.
Like I said this week also had the lowest of lows. I was in a pretty dark place that I couldn't shake for a few days. I was doing everything I knew to do to get rid of it and nothing was working. Much time was spent on my knees and in the scriptures. I felt so down and then, THEN, it felt like Heavenly Father kicked me while I was down. And it hurt, a lot. Sister Mutter had a headache so I was driving. We had to go home to get something on our way to an appointment. There is a square curb in front of our apartment that is very hard to see, we bump it pretty frequently. But I happened to hit it at just the right angle and it popped our tire.
I was so frustrated and embarrassed deep down but brushed it off best I could, took accountability and made the calls and took the pictures and helped our amazing ward member change the tire. But I couldn't believe that Heavenly Father would put that on top of everything I was already dealing with when I was doing my very best to do all the right things. I KNOW that when we obey we are blessed, so it seemed so unfair that I wasn't seeing any relief for my efforts. And while the day turned out fine because somehow I didn't have a breakdown, I still didn't feel right.
Basically the sun didn't rise until the next morning. I woke up feeling much better. I almost didn't trust how good I was feeling. I made some amazing banana chocolate chip muffins (seriously-going in my bakery when I get back). Then I found a lucky penny on the ground (you all know how much I love change). The sun was shining, there was a nice breeze. We got home for dinner and in the mailbox- a letter from my AMAZING Aunt Kathleen and Great Grandma Griffiths. It had yellow smiley faces :) And a Smile Box from Loren and Jamie. It's a box filled with yellow things and on the top was a quote that said "You can. End of story". It was everything I needed. It was such a happy day. We made papusas and the were STELLAR. So good.
We had so much fun street contacting that night too! People were so kind and we were dropping cards and pamphlets and copies of the Book of Mormon left and right. An old man and his wife sang Westside story "You're so pretty, you're so witty..." at us from across the street haha such a great night. One man opened his door and said, "It's the Mormon Sisters! Honey, do we want to talk to the Mormon Sisters?" They said yes, to come back a different time (it was getting pretty late). Super cool experiences! And the fireflies were everywhere. They are so magical. I love them.
Moral of my story this week. I was reading that happy morning about Adam and Eve and agency. It lead to a talk by Elder Hales about agency and he talks about how Satan has NO power over us. None.
None none none. We choose happiness. We choose to use the Atonement. We choose who we become and when we become it. And I chose right then to be happy. Just like I chose to not let the popped tire send me into an even more depressed spiral. I had to fight for it, it took effort, but was well worth it. I don't want to be miserable like I was this week again, ever. And I'm going to fight my hardest to never let myself get there again. Because I have all the power. And YOU have all the power. All because Heavenly Father lets us choose for ourselves. He loves us. He wants us to be happy so if we want to be truly happy He will make a way. You just have to choose it. It's in the little things-making sure to change your attitude before it builds up. Decide you're happy even when all reason makes it seem like you should be miserable and soon life is all good all the time and it feels great haha! Sounds pretty funny but it works. It's what Heavenly Father wants for you. Satan wants your misery, don't let him have it. Give yourself some love and positivity this week and I'll try to do the same. Thanks again for everything. I love you all more than I can say.
Love, Sister Peck
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