The Hope of God's Light

Sister Lindsay Peck:
Hola everyone, I wanted to let you know that I had to come home from my mission this week. My heart is more than a little broken. Clinging to the examples of my heroes has helped me get to where I am.

Last week, I looked to Esther's example of courage as I chose to be open with the medical staff that I was struggling with disordered eating, knowing my mission was at risk.

I looked to Eve's example of accountability as I took the fall for my actions and was "cast out". I looked to her example of foresight as I recognized that it is better to suffer the temporary pains so that I might find more eternal joys and fulfill the plan Heavenly Father has for me.

I looked to Ruth's example of humility and faith as I tried to accept and follow His plan.

I am looking now to the example of the woman with the issue of blood, as I reach for the healing that only Jesus Christ can give and try to remember that I am always worthy of His love.
I testify of the REAL power of Christ's atonement to heal the wounded soul.

About 3 years ago my little brother passed away, and I wrote an article about my thoughts and feelings. I wanted to share a little piece of it again, because it describes it pretty perfectly:

"Ten months after my world first shattered, I am putting on a dress for my little brother's funeral. It has yellow flowers. Just ten months, and I am a new person. During those ten months, I have picked up the shards of my broken self and tried to put them back. But they don't fit the same. There are old pieces, and some are new. The reflection has changed. Now when I look, I see things differently than I did before. I see things that other people don't. This is when I learn that a broken heart with a missing piece won't ever feel the same again, and it hurts terribly. But the brokenness means that someday I will be stronger. It's the kind of strength that comes from a clearer lens of understanding, and empathy, and insight."

I served for 10 months and I am eternally grateful for the time Heavenly Father gave me to serve and learn and teach and love in Maryland. I love and miss the people so completely.
I may never know if I changed anyone's life there. But Christ changed me. Every experience broke me down and gave me new pieces to become who I needed to become. It came in a way I never imagined it would come, and not in a way I wanted it. But I know Heavenly Father has a greater plan. I know that Christ will be with me through it all. And with that knowledge I can do anything.

I'll be talking about my miracles in Maryland this Sunday at 9 a.m. at 155 E 9400 S Paradise UT and you are welcome to come!